I want to start my career~~~!!!!!

I know it's been almost way too long that I have not had a job. More than 50% of that being so is because I chose to be lazy and who would blame you to be. Im living in a good house without worrying too much about money. I have this huge TV to come home, I don't pay for car insurace (excluding the whole maxima). Even though my original plan was to go to graduate school and postponed my career for another 2 years. Almost a year and some months have passed and I have not progess in my life. I have been stuck a state that is somewhat undescribable. What my biggest weakness for my lazyness is not the pure lazyness itself. It more on the lines that Im a hamster; I'm easily distracted. Now granted, lately I have been extremely busy and the only night where I can really relax is sunday, but I know if I had just concentrated a little more then maybe "goddess of luck" may come to my rescue. The biggest thing I like to do and do job searches and then I have them all set; to do nothing about them. The biggest flaw is myself; in college, I did what I had to do and that's that. I knew how the system work, I knew how graders graded and how professionals gave exam so I knew what I had to do and then I can go on and be lazy. I mean that is really life isn't it? You figure the system out and then the world is yours for the taking.

This past week, my friends have gone off to a world in which I could and should of joined. LAS VEGAS and I have no clue what may of happened there, but because they were gone I did have alot of time just thinking and now more than ever do I really want to start my career. No more pushing it back. This week I have sent out a good 15 resumes and I do have my worries since alot of the job searches I do what people with experience so when I see the opportunity I go after it. I realized that looking for job as just like have a job. It's difficult, the waiting can sometimes kill you and you are competing with hundreds of people. I found this one job a couple days go in which I did sent my cover letter and resume, but maybe the cover letter that I sent was too broad and I should of focused it a bit more towards the company. The company of Underwriting Laboratories and what they wanted me to do was awesome and the pay was in the 50k - 55K range. Now money is not the reason for getting this job. I could care if I made 30K a year, the experience is more important to me. All I do now is job search. I mean when ever Im near a internet connection (including at work), I am job search, polishing my cover letter and hoping that I will get recognized. I don't want to wait any more. I don't want to be lazy any more. For the first time in my life, Im not afraid of the real world; I want to attack and bring out what I am capable of.